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nothings gonna stop me [21 Apr 2007|02:35pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Cheyenne Kimball - Hanging On ] Hosa States was this past Wednesday through Today. It was so much fun. Marie got first place.. That was exciting... : ] I miss my one friend. haha. Uhm. I sucked on my tests..but me Chirstine and Tammy had fun. A lot a lot. I talked in my sleep a lot. Kirk was nice.. haha : ] There were two girls there named: Princess Stubbs && Katie Ashcraft. hahahahahahahahahahahaha I'm so immature. HIGH FIVE! comment

I swear I'm sleeping less and less.. [14 Apr 2007|10:44am] [ mood | good ] [ music | Sunday Best - Augustana ] Yesterdayyy.. I went on a Fiberglass Tiger Hunt in Detroit with my mom, nicole, jordan and joey. We only found two. However it was fun. I had practice too..and we went to breakfast. That went well. Uhmm. I'm about to go to Joeys game today..with Jaja..aka Pokealoke. That's all. comment

When you were younngggg.. [12 Apr 2007|09:48pm] [ mood | optimistic ] [ music | Written At A Reststop - Ronnie Day ] So I watched Borat today with Nicole and Katie... and I wasn't impressed. I thought it was as big of a letdown as Napoleon Dynamite and Nacho Libre. I'm really disappointed. Other than that Wednesday I went to the Science Center to see the "Our Body" Exhibit thing..that was cool. I think my dad wants to go see it..so i might go again. I bought this book the other day 10,000 Dreams Interpreted. It's really interesting..my mom says it's a crock of crap..but I want to believe it's accurate. I realized my crazy need to be accepted by everyone today. It's really sad. I need to stop that. I need to go to bed..my eyes are starting to cross themselves..hah. I'm about to be pissed if my brother stays up all night being loud, real pissed. K that is all. comment

that i never knew i needed.. [18 Jan 2007|09:23pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | She Is - The Fray ] We had a volleyball game yesterday. We lost, and honestly i felt like i played like crap. I still think that i did, but i think stats saved me and i'm pretty sure i had like 12 digs. this is nice to know, after wanting to never play volleyball again. I'm not too sure i'll be ready for regionals for HOSA.. god i hope so. I've been house sitting at my moms friends house for the whole week.. and its nice. very niiiiice. I got my School Board meeting out of the way..mannn that feels good. Things are good right now. 1 ♥ comment

I'm not up to being strong.. [14 Jan 2007|09:52pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | I'm Already There - Lonestar ] So as i was looking through all of the songs on my computer i came across two that made me so incredibly happy that homecoming is done and gone and i never have to go through everything that i did again. It kind of makes me sick to think about it..like litterally to my stomach. I'm Already There - Lonestar && Is It Over Yet - Wynonna Judd It's been almost 3 months. I'm really sad today..but i'm letting it go.. I kind of have a cold thing going on right now, i'm about to take some drugs though so i'll be knocked out. Yesterday was a lot of fun.. I went to Joey's soccer games, some of Rob's Tournament, Took Grandma D out to dinner..and then hung out with the people i should be playing volleyball with. : ]   i love them. I had fun.. much needed fun.. i would be having fun at swits now, but mom is coming home tonight, annnnd i'm not feeling so hot. not so hot at all. i do wish i was there though..for reallll. next time. i'm done with this for today..maybe i'll try keeping this up. : ] loovee!! comment

Send me on my way.. [15 Nov 2006|11:41pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Rusted Root - Send Me On My Way ] Ms. Hulys class blows my life dude. It's straight though. I can't wait till WHIP Week is overrrr. BAH. I'm really tired.. Volleyball tryouts start tomorrow!!! I don't actually think i'm excited..i think i'm just pretending. heh. fo real. K i'm gonna go try to sleep.. comment

Claudia drinks. [12 Nov 2006|01:55pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | I'm Yours - Jason Mraz ] I am becoming infatuated with Jason Mraz. He's good. Nicoles was FUN last night. heh. I love LALA!!!! Things are picking upppppp. :) 1 ♥ comment

you start shakin at the thought.. [24 Oct 2006|08:43pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Make Damn Sure - Taking Back Sunday ] Taking tile off of floors is hard. Getting the adhesive off is even harder. dang. Some stray dog wandered over to my house last night. She was a boxer and she was precious.  We named her Pearl.  Her owner came while i was at school though..so i didnt get to say good bye.  :(   Her real name was Daisy...how lame. These alcohol fumes are getting to me. I ate lunch with my CI (Special Education) Kids today at lunch..they helped sell stuff in the common store. Today Mr. Zens assumed i was a whore or something. I was in the percussion room with Schmo, Big D and a few others..when the lights went off and Big D took his pants off..because he had pajama pants on underneath, so when the lights went off naturally people started screaming which led to Mr. Zens opening the door, turning on the light and seeing D with his pants down (pajama pants were still there) so when i walked out of the room with Mariel Mr. Zens just stared me down like "You sick kid." haha. for real. Then i was getting hugs from my Boys in Symphonic Band and Mr. Zens was like "Let's keep our hands to ourselves."  I just left. pfffthahaha. I'm not a hoe or a pedifile, i'll only admit to the liar title i've earned myself. thats all. I hung out with Nicole yesterday...that was fun. :) 1 ♥ comment

[21 Oct 2006|07:55pm] Just my fucking luck. Exactly what i wanted after going through the hardest weekend/week of my life. i'm done. i dont even care anymore. 1 ♥ comment

havent you heard her mutter those three dirty words [19 Oct 2006|06:37pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Hey Now Girl - Phantom Planet ] such little time. bah. so much to do. It smells like a funeral home in my house..mom decided to bring home a million flowers... dang. i'm tired. i need school. i need health occ. ohhh i need health occ. bye. comment

[15 Oct 2006|06:20pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | Let Go - Frou Frou ] Homecoming is over. Thank god. So for those of you who dont know my grandma was takin to the hospital on friday, we found her dead i guess..then they took her to the hospital and got her breathing with the help of machines.  They did a brain scan and she has no brain activity at all. It's so unreal..shes still alive as of right now, but we're planning the funeral right now.  It'll be next week some time. She's still technically alive so theres a part of me that thinks shes still live even though i know it's not going to happen. Thats why i'm so weird right now, cause i'm confused..i've never lost anyone close to me..ever. So this is new to me. Bah...i dont know. It happened on Friday the 13th...never again will i underestimate the power of friday the 13th and murphys law..which is "anything that can go wrong will go wrong." It was so incredibly true this weekend...i hope nobody else will ever have a homecoming like i did. I dont know about school tomorrow. 2 ♥ comment

gah. [12 Oct 2006|01:42am] life sucks. as you 've heard me say all week. it will continue to suck till i get my friends back. untill they start caring about me again..and untill i feel like a part of the group again. or untill i kill myself. : ) comment

i am crying a part of me's dying.. [08 Oct 2006|02:03am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Confessions of a Broken Heart - Lindsay Lohan ] We started painting today. Bah. Lots to go. I drove a lot today..mowed two lawns. Last night Mike Radtke was over..and i couldnt bring myself to go down stairs. sad. Matildas on in the living room, such a fantastic movie. okay going to go paint now. the breakdown last night was necessary. comment

[28 Aug 2006|11:16pm] [ mood | Alright.. ] [ music | The Fray - Look After You ] So my birthday is in about 40minutes... and I guess i'm excited.. And although i know/hope  i'll be getting happy birthday all day..i really only want to hear it from 2 people..via phone/myspace or aim i dont care. I just want to hear it. I wont say who the 2 people are...because i'll appreciate everyone saying it. Seems as if since these people left they dont care about me anymore..which makes me feel like crap. Oh well. In Myspace Blog, in the 100 Rules to live by one is "Change what you can, let go of the rest." And i think thats how i have to treat this situation. So tomorrow Tennis pictures are at 2:30 Band off to the State fair at 3:00? hah Home hopefully by 8:00 Off to Drivers Training till 10:00 Off to Anthonys. Yeah. 2 ♥ comment

i'm not up to being stong.. [20 May 2006|06:55pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | Is it Over Yet - Wynonna Judd ] So things have been pretty alright lately.. Pretty content. Havent made it to the fair yet..its not like i like anything about it anyways..  : / Soo next year I'm S.A. Vice President. I'm really nervous for next year..i'm gonna be honest. Scared might be a better word.  I've been trying to grow up lately, because i know next year is going to be a bitch. I've been questioning a lot of things and thought a couple of times about quitting band..but that didnt last for long. I'm so excited for next years drumline. I dont know why..i plan on doing stuff..like decorating the percussion room and stuff. I miss the guys a lot..i see them in school but its not the same as seeing them everyday and listening to their discusting jokes.  I cant wait for summerschool to roll around..i 'll bet my life on me taking chemistry this summer. I wish i didnt have to take that class. It is litterally impossible for me to understand that stuff.  I got a body pillow the otherday..possibly the best investment i've ever made in something. I usually dont sleep with a pillow..just because i dont really like them..but this whole body pillow deal is really working out. I want to cut my hair...off. Like a lot. I'm kind of tired of playing it safe in the hair department. But i'm not going to lie..i'm scared shitless to cut it. I might go to the Hoedown with Addy tonight..i could use some time out of this house...even though most of the time i'm in it is because i choose to be. heh. Yeah... Stuff sucks i guess i lied.. comment

[11 Apr 2006|09:01pm] Heh...i'm updating! I never do that anymore. Ummm. yea. i'll really update later. 2 ♥ comment

5 weird habits of yours [07 Mar 2006|07:00pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | bad day - daniel powter ] Ground Rules: The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 weird habits of yours" and people who get tagged (selected) need to write an LJ entry about their 5 quirky habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their names 1. I only eat the coating of a bloomin onion...or whatever it maybe called..i like the taste of onions but i hate the texture. therefore i cannot eat them. 2. I have to sleep on my stomach, or on my side curled up. No other way will do as of right now. 3. Silence scares me. I find it very akward when i'm with someone, anyone, and its quiet. There needs to be noise, music is fine. 4. I hate vegatables, the only kind i like are cold carrots. I could eat them for the rest of my life. YUM. 5. I'm cranky the week after my period, never when i'm on it. Suckkkks for you.   : ) tag: 1. your mom 2. my mom 3. your cousins mom 4. your aunts mom 5. th4 b4b4's mom comment

fuck... [24 Feb 2006|11:30pm] [ mood | cranky ] dont even try it. sorry in advance. ummm i need to stop skipping school..gah. i'm dumb. i'm so incredibly tired right now. but fuck face is in my bed. i seriously get so mad when she does this...yes you emily. game was okay..i called it.. i knew meghan was going to win.. ..... we left at halftime..then we went to coney..and stuffed ourselves. kind of discusting..yeayea ugh. today kinda sucked? uhm for the record i like the new rich text layout thing...makes things so much easier.. watching cruel intentions tomorrow? kkkkkkk finding a fucking bed. bitch. 2 ♥ comment

[21 Feb 2006|10:29pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | Bad Day - Daniel Powter ] skips school...whoopswhoops. couldnt wake up.. My B. sooo tomorrow i'm about to go fail my chem test..get even more lost in geometry and bitch out mrs. loop. : ) : ) : )  Looking forward to tomorrow i did nothing today..got my camera developed... umm something is digging into my gums..they have been bleeding alllll dayy..cool. tired. night. comment

Where is the magic when you need it the most.. [18 Feb 2006|09:24am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Natasha Beddingfield - Unwritten ] so basically... volleyball sucks ryann stocker is hilarious and my butt is medium. : ) i'm going to go visit emm this weekend..i'm excited....swimming and such. I think i look cute today. lots of yellow. yellow is a happy color. which i think is my mood. i wish i could go up north to traverse city...   : / ....my grandpa isnt allowed to leave his house.  thats how much snow they are having. ahh <3  Volleyball yesterday was ugh...i thought we had a win at the end. whatttevvvv. Had a game with SUNSHINE and we won...6-5. Awesomefunexciting game. I blew butttt whatever we played the TEXAS ROADHOUSE TEAM. <3..i fell down with the help of some really pretty boy. I managed to get right back up though. that was a mistake though ... i shoulda just stayed down stopped breatheing and allowed him to give me mouth to mouth. lord he was pretty. Went to Cloverleaf last night..the restaraut i absoluety LOATHE. ugh. but i got fetticcini alllfredooooo wooo.  I played Club Keno..won a dollar thenn...i lost it again playing it. : (   Then i lost playing the crane game...no suprise though..no one ever wins that. Cept for creepy kids that like you and win you things in 4th grade. Gotta go get ready and pack my thingsss! Hope everything gets better Ryann! 4 ♥ comment

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